Thurs 5/10/12 - Breck's Post

Thurs 5/10/12 - Breck's Post

Hey everyone, this is Breck again. Oh I would just like to include how I've felt these past few days. I really don't know what to say except that I cannot wait to graduate. I can't wait to see doctors. I can't wait to figure these seizures out, and can't wait to hopefully someday be able to drive.

Hopefully I'll only be 19 by then and not any older than 21, getting a driver's license...
I of course didn't see these two seizures I had last night in my sleep; I wouldn't even know I had them if it weren't for sleeping with my mom. She's the only one who tells me how many I have the night before.

I also don't really remember some things about the seizures I have in class. Like the one I had yesterday in my first hour. I do remember feeling the seizure coming and wondering if it actually was a seizure, deciding to just stay there in class...but then just seeing my teacher out of nowhere in front of me and noticing my spot of drool on my leg. I still don't know how many people may have seen it. I just stayed there in class until he finished the lesson for the day and wiped the drool I felt all over my chin...oh so embarrassing.

My teacher followed me outside, just before I would be on my way to the nurse's office. I do remember him talking to me right there...but now I don't even remember what he said. I also remember calling my mom on my way to the nurse's office, but now I don't even remember what I was saying to her on the phone. I was making sense for once...but I still am not even able to remember what I was saying. I just remember wondering at the time in my head if I was making sense; she says I was, and I even remember understanding at the time what my teacher and her and the nurse said...but now I can't remember what any of them said.

My memories of these experiences change. Oh it's just so crazy how many seizures I have.
I just...I want to thank you all as well for the comments and for all your prayers. I do know I wouldn't be able to get through these experiences without the strength which comes from these prayers and God's love. I pray you all have the blessings which would come with praying for me. I thank you all again. I just need to graduate...and then hopefully I’ll figure these seizures out. I do know they don't come without a great reason from my Father in Heaven.