Mon 10/28/13 – Seizure her sleep

This was Monday night.  About 2:30 am I awoke to slight gagging / gurgling noises.  I woke Breck and asked if she was ok.  She tried twice to tell me something but it didn’t make any sense.  I couldn’t tell at all what she was trying to say.  We at that point noticed two large wet spots on her shirt and her pillow was very wet again.  Very signature of her seizures.  After about 5 minutes she could speak again and went back to bed. 

I didn’t notice any more that night and she stayed home to rest from school on Tuesday.

Still waiting to hear back from the neurologist

Smiles

Thurs 10/24/13 – Specialized WADA – Discharge – straight to ER

St Joseph's Hospital 4th Floor to Parking Lot to St Joseph's ER!

Approx 1pm… After Breck signed her discharge papers – Looking great – I headed to get the car.  Two volunteers wheeled her down to the pick up zone.  As I drove up I could see her being wheeled out of the main lobby towards me.  “Oh, No… she doesn’t look good!”  I quickly ran over to her.  She whispered “I don’t feel good”  Then her head went back, mouth turned up on the right side, right hand clenches in a distorted fist.  I quickly tell one of the girls to go get help – “She is having a seizure!”  Was very short – maybe a minute.  Breck whispers “Mmmomm”.  I can tell she is coming out of it.  But she still couldn’t lift her head and her top lip is pure white, with the bottom lip turning blue.  She is also turning blue around the nose.  We wheel her back into the lobby where a respiratory therapist runs over and slips on a device to monitor her oxygen level.  She too loudly calls over to security “This mom needs some help here… her daughter is still blue!”  Another nurse comes over – then we start pushing Breck towards the ER – I am holding her head while they push.  They are talking to her.  “Breck!!  Stay with me!  Are you here?  Breck?”  Once we made it to the ER they quickly transfer her to a gurney – they were headed out the door coming at us.   

Once she was in her ER room and connected to the Monitor – she soon started looking better.  I left to go back and re-park my car.  One of the volunteers was sweet enough to stay with my car as I had left my purse and keys on the front seat with the windows down.  How nice of her!

As soon as I got back to the ER – a young nurse came in and stated “Ok, I guess you’re being released.  You can go home.”  I looked at her and said “They just put her in the bed?”  She stated again, “No, it says right here that after resting for 2.5 hours she can go home.”  I tried to patiently explain to her that those discharge orders were from upstairs where we had just come from.  She looked at me and said “ I am confused.  Let me go look again”.

The ER Doctor was Dr. Donald J Lauer.  He asked the basic questions concerning seizures and what had happened.  I explained Breck had just had a procedure on the 4^th floor – a “specialized WADA” test and that she never made it out of the wheel chair – she went into a seizure and was turning blue.  He then asked me “Do you always take her to the ER when she has a seizure?”.  I stated “No, but she just had a procedure, was turning blue and the number one risk is a stroke”  I strongly asked him to just call upstairs to Dr. Park or Dr. Albuquerque and they would tell him.  During this time – the young nurse or assistant came back in and said “Ok, you will be getting blood…”  I looked at her and said “What?  I don’t understand!?”  She then pointed to the blue band on Breck’s arm and said – “that blue band means you are getting blood”.  I explained again, “No – that blue band was put on upstairs just in case she needed blood from her procedure.”  She again stated she was confused and would go look at the chart! 

Another nurse then came and I repeated everything to her.  I asked her to please check with the 4^th floor.  Especially worried about a stroke.  She left and I never saw any of them again. 

About 4:30 we met Dr Brian Beck.  At this time Breck mentioned that the right side of her cheek, lip and half of her tongue felt very strange.  Tingly.  I again repeated what transpired from the WADA test, parking lot and my worry of a stroke.  I actually said “I don’t want to take her home only to find out that we have to come back and that she had a stroke!  I want her checked out while we are here!”  He agreed.  He did the normal physical neurological testing.  Hold up your hands, palms up.  Keep them there.  Can you stick out your tongue?  Can you spell the word “world” backwards?  What’s this? A pen.  Good.  What’s this?  A watch.  Good.  What day is it?  Where are you?  Can you feel this?  How about over here?  Lift your leg… don’t let me push it down.  Point your toes.  Good.  Flex your toes.  Good.  Can you see which had is moving? (from the sides of her eyes).  Good.  Then Dr. Beck states “Well, outside of the tingling, I don’t see any evidence of a stroke. The tingling could be just a side effect of her seizure.  Has she experience this before?”  Breck tells him “no”.  He then says it will most likely go away by morning and if not to be sure to let someone know.  But for now –can go home. 

I guess there was a shift change.  Dr. Lauer had gone home – the new attending ER Doctor – don’t remember his name came in and discharged us.

At 5:30 pm after 4.5 hours She is exhausted.  I am exhausted.  I go and get the car.  Breck is wheeled out of the hospital a second time and we arrive home by 6:30pm. 

I had Breck sleep with me.  We were in bed by 8pm and slept great all night.  

Wed 5/16/12 - 5:30 am seizure

Wed 5/16/12 - 5:30 am seizure

I was surprised to wake early to Breck having a seizure. I really figured that while on her menstrual cycle we were in the clear. I was wrong... bummer for us. But I know we won't be able to always predict them so I will just continue to document them.

She was on her stomach with her face turned to the left. I heard the swallowing / clicking noise and noticed a lot of saliva. Of course her eyes were open and fixed as well. Her head was also raised up a bit from the pillow and her body was completely stiff. It took at least a minute before she took in a deep breath and relaxed. Once she relaxed she went right back to sleep.

Her alarm went off at 5:45 (yes... only 15 minutes later!) and I noticed as she woke up and looked surprised to see her pillowcase wet. She shook her head and got out of bed. It still surprised me to think that she had no recall or memory of her seizure just 15 minutes prior. Without that wet mark or me witnessing the seizure - she would have no idea she even had one.

It makes me a little sad to think of how long she could have been having seizures in her sleep and we never knew it. But -- again, I know I can't dwell in that place - so I turn my focus on the fact that now we know... and now she IS with someone at night while sleeping --- she has been watched over by more than we know I am sure. Do you believe in angels? I do.

She had a great day at school. Has only one final to study for anymore and so the pressure is not as intense. She had plenty of energy and felt good all day. That is a huge blessing in itself.
Smiles
Sean A'lee

Thurs 5/10/12 - 5 am seizure

Thurs 5/10/12 - 5 am seizure

2nd Seizure in her sleep. Woke again to the clicking noise and lots of saliva at 5am. Very typical seizure lasting only a minute. But she is really tired.

Needless to say --- I am making a "mom's" decision and she will be staying home today from school. Even that is a hard decision as I don't feel comfortable leaving her home alone. And unfortunately we have a group of 36 ASU Junior High kids at the ranch. With 3 kayak trips and 3 horseback riding trips that we have to transport - I am not able to stay home. So we call in the family forces and Izaak will be here with Breck today.

I do feel fortunate that we live onsite so that I can run home if needed. Hopefully she will get some good sleep and we can get her body to calm down.

Monday will be my next day off and we will continue the Insurance process --- goal is to get her to a doctor.

And with all that - I read a great quote someone posted on facebook ..

"If you want a rainbow you gotta put up with the rain" - Dolly Parton

So true --- I know growth and learning comes thru the hardest of times - And I know we are not alone. I am thankful for the love I feel from my Savior and my family. We are blessed in so many ways. Focusing my thoughts in this direction helps me to move forward and know that it will be alright and that someday --- the Bevell family will be REALLY SMART! lol

Smiles
Sean A'lee

Thurs 5/10/12 - 1:30am seizure

Thurs 5/10/12 - 1:30am seizure

I called for John to help with this one. I woke up to Breck gagging --- she was on her back and I could see her choking on her tongue. (I have not seen this before) Eyes open, body stiff, right arm above her head and laying on her back. I got her rolled over as John came into help. He whispered in her ear and stroked her head. Luckily she took a deep breath. Once she came to, she sat up and coughed and then rolled onto her stomach to go back to sleep.

I was relieved it ended easily. I was concerned this one would progress into more. We are always prepared to administer a blessing and her emergency meds if needed.

Smiles
Sean A'lee

Wed 5/9/12 - 9:15 am seizure

Wed 5/9/12 - 9:15 am seizure

Breck called me shortly after dropping her off at school. She had a seizure in her first hour class. She only remembers feeling "strange" and wondering if she would have time to leave the room. Instead she stayed in her chair. Next thing she realizes the teacher is in front of her and her pant leg has a big spot of drool. She then headed to the nurse.

When she called we talked about me picking her up but decided this might be a good day to see if she could make it thru school. She kept me updated throughout the day so I could continue at work.

Then in sixth hour she felt "strange" but after talking to her we don't believe she had an actual seizure --- but they were watching a video in the dark and she left the room as soon as she felt weird. Once outside in the light she felt better.

This evening she was able to work on homework and even head with me to my mothers to wish her a "happy birthday" and have a piece of cake. She also needed to finish the video that they watched in class and it wouldn't work on our internet here at the ranch. So she is caught up for her 6th hour class for tomorrow. Yeah!

That is all for tonight... It is late and I am super tired. Love and smiles to all
Sean A'lee

Wed 5/9/12 - 6am seizure

Wed 5/9/12 - 6am seizure

I woke up several times thru the night with a feeling to check Breck. Each time she was fine. Once her alarm went off at 5:45am I thought we were home free. Then I woke up at 6am with her right arm stiff - bent at the elbow and holding her phone. Again - her eyes were locked and eyelids fluttering, lots of saliva. I rolled her over to her side and talked to her. Telling her "it is ok... just breathe"... Seconds can seem like a really long time, but in reality it lasted for less than a minute and she took a deep breath and laid back.

After about 5 minutes she got out of bed... still a little unsteady -- but was determined to get ready for school. By the time we left for school... she was fully coherent and said she felt fine....

What a trooper.
Smiles
Sean A'lee

Tues 5/8/12 - 1:30 am Seizure

Tues 5/8/12 - 1:30 am Seizure

Hopefully we are winding down again. Breck had a seizure at 1:30 am this morning but felt good enough to go to school. She had a great day -- even got an 87% on a very hard government test. And no seizures throughout the day. Yeah!

We also met with the counselor and a few of her teachers to set up what is called a 504. This is similar to what they call an IEP for kids who need extra help with classes. This one sets options, or allowances for her medical condition. The other great thing about this 504 is that it will carry over to college. That is why we are writing it up even tho there are only 2 weeks left of school. In fact the teachers have been so willing and cooperative.

Some of their suggestions of things Breck needed was:
extra time to complete assignments
Contact info for the professor during off hours - to discuss things she may have missed or even just to ask questions about the work.
Online schedule or calendar of work in case she misses a class.
They all said they are amazed at how well she applies herself and that she is always proactive at getting her missed work and completing it. She often will email her teachers when she isn't feeling well or has missed a day.

I love this about her. She showed this in her work today too. She had missed school Friday and Monday (yesterday) so in English she asked the teacher what she missed. The teacher said they had just been watching a movie and that the written assignment was for extra credit only. Well Breck has an A in the class and doesn't need any extra credit, so she asked if she could go to the Library to work on her other work.

Then in 5th hour - she was free so she went to make up a test and finished early - so again she went to the library to work on her homework.
Her efforts show and the teachers know that she doesn't use her seizures to not complete work... but that sometimes she does need a little extra time to finish them if she hasn't felt good.

So proud of my girl! What an example she is to me.
Love and Smiles
Sean A'lee

Mon 5/7/12 - 1:15pm Seizure

Mon 5/7/12 - 1:15pm Seizure

I am so glad I am at home today. Breck went to lay down about 12pm to nap. And again - I was in the office - working on her insurance "todo" list - when I heard her coughing... I went to check on her and she was sleeping. I nudged her to make sure she was ok and sure enough - another large wet spot on her pillow (about the size of a large orange this time).

I asked her if she was ok... she was groggy and just shook her head and said "I don't know". I asked if she knew where she was? She just shook her head - which tells me that she doesn't understand what I am saying.

She then rolled over and went back to sleep.

I really need a good baby monitor. I can't wait till we get her to a doctor again. There has got to be options for when she is sleeping.

Well I have to get back to figuring out her insurance. Those details will have to be for another time.
We are fine --- she is resting again.
Smiles
Sean A'lee

Mon 5/7/12 - 1am Seizure

Mon 5/7/12 - 1am Seizure

So --- I didn't actually see this one. I was in the office working on Breck's graduation announcements. She had actually gone to bed around 10pm after coming home from a Sunday Institute Fireside. And we didn't notice any seizures during the day on Sunday.

But -- when I checked on her about 1:30 am - her pillowcase was drenched. about the size of a medium watermelon... so we knew she had a seizure. I didn't wake her -- and I didn't wake to anymore in the night.

She stayed home from school as she felt very sluggish and tired.
We are on another stretch ---
Smiles
Sean A'lee

Sun 5/6/12 - 3am Seizure

Sun 5/6/12 - 3am Seizure

Posted May 6, 2012 11:14pm

Breck had gone 7 days without any seizures and so I was not surprised to wake up to a seizure early this morning. It was a very typical one --- She was on her stomach with her head turned to the right. Her eyes were open and fixed. Lips smacking and lots of saliva. It was very short and then she went right back to sleep.

After she was awake and ready for church, I asked her if she remembered having a seizure. She said no --- not at all --- but she believed me because she said she felt strange all morning.

The only other side effects that we could see today is that she was super tired. But -- we didn't see anymore visible signs of seizures. Luckily she was able to take a nap and seemed fine late this afternoon.

We are hoping for a good nights sleep tonight. All in all - we are doing fine.

smiles
Sean A'lee

Sat 4/28/12 - 5:30pm seizure

Sat 4/28/12 - 5:30pm seizure

I received a text from Breck stating that she had a seizure while at her friends house. She remembers nothing other than looking down and seeing her shirt wet with saliva. She was at a friends birthday party and said everyone was really nice about it.

I was so glad that her good friend Michael was there as he has seen quite a few of these. He never "freaks" out and actually used to carry her emergency medicine on him all the time. (Until it was so smashed from being in his wallet... lol)

Well on the way home she asked him about what happened and who noticed. He said a girl said "Hey, is Breck ok?!" He looked over and said "Oh --- just a seizure" very calmly. They said it lasted under way under a minute and that she came fully out of it really fast.

Now --- Breck was very prepared when she went to this party as she had her emergency meds and made sure Michael knew where it was before arriving. Again I am so grateful that she has such good friends. Michael is just one example of that. He even keeps me posted if he thinks she sounds weird over a text. Love that boy! I don't think I could let her go places if she didn't have that kind of support system.

Another example is today when her cousin Katie came to work with her at the ranch this morning. We first made sure Breck was feeling ok and that she felt like she could do a few hours. Katie has seen many seizures from my Niece Chelsea and another of Katie's cousins on the Durfee side. So it doesn't seem to scare her too much. She just helps Breck as needed and let's me know what is going on. Luckily today --- Breck did great at work with no incidents.

The only other thing to note is that her menstrual cycle has started. It is rare when a young lady finds relief during this time. lol But Usually she has no seizures during during her actual cycle.

This would be day one... so we will see how tonight and tomorrow go.

Smiles

Sean A'lee

Sat 4/28/12 - 2 am seizure

Sat 4/28/12 - 2 am seizure

Breck was on her back. Her right arm bent at the elbow but lifted up a little --- fingers stretched straight out and stiff. Eyes wide open and foaming mouth with lots of drool. These are the ones that seem to scare me as she was blue at the lips and seemed to be choking. I tried to roll her over, ran and got John and by the time we were back she was coming out of it. She sat up --- again shook her head, rolled onto her stomach and went back to sleep. All in all --- from when I woke up until it was over - less than 2 min. Just don't know when it started.

This is day 4 of this stretch of seizures... we should be just about through for awhile if it follows the same monthly pattern since January 2012. I am hoping that is the case.

Smiles

Sean A'lee

Fri 4/27/12 - 2:00pm and 6:50 seizure

Fri 4/27/12 - 2:00pm and 6:50 seizure

I received a text from my Mother that Breck had a seizure at 2pm. She had woken from her nap and had just eaten some noodle soup and a Popsicle. Then she, my mother and my nephew Jacob had gone outside on the back porch. My sister Erika was in the office working on her online classes as my mother was babysitting Jacob and the new baby Joshua.

Jacob needed some outside time and my mother let Breck hold sweet Joshua while she played with Jacob. As my mother was headed inside for a quick minute Breck said "Grandma you need to get take the baby." My mother said "Are you ok?" Breck - "I feel funny". My mother immediately headed over and just after she took the baby - Breck went into a seizure. My mother first reassured Breck that she was ok and that she was there. There were no convulsions, but her mouth turned up slightly and her head fell slightly back and to the left. My mother quickly got Erika who came and also told Breck that she was ok and that they were there for her. They had taken paper towels out to catch the drool and waited for her to come out of it. Again she had a lot of saliva. They believe it was 2 minutes or less in all. She remained in the chair for a few minutes until she was able to walk inside.

Everyone was calm. Breck then was super tired and slept until about 4:30 pm.

After that they ate dinner and were playing games. Breck went to the bathroom around 6:45. She had another seizure then but was by herself. She remembered finishing and washing her hands standing at the sink. Then when she came out of it she saw the drool on the floor. The good thing was apparently she did not fall, thank heavens. They continued to play games, even dominoes -- working on the mind -- Breck was smart and used her calculator and Grandma worked at the old way in her head - I think it hurt - haha.

Again - I am so extremely grateful for my family who can take such good care of Breck. It was a complete comfort knowing Breck was there and not at home alone. I also know I could at anytime call on any of my Bevell Sisters to help at anytime. Or John's mom. I also have such amazing friends at church that would come to help if needed. I don't know how people cope without such a fantastic support group. And I am thankful that I most of the time I am available to help my daughter. These are the blessings a midst the storms. Thank you everyone for your prayers of peace and strength. They are felt!

Smiles

Sean A'lee

Fri 4/27/12 - 8:50 am seizure in 1st hour

Fri 4/27/12 - 8:50 am seizure in 1st hour

I had just returned to the ranch after dropping her off at school when I received a phone call from Breck at 9am. I knew she had had a seizure as she couldn't formulate concise sentences. Just getting small words out like mom, don't feel good. I asked if she had a seizure - she responded with yes. I told her to get to the nurse and I would go pick her up.

After we were in the car about 9:30am she told me that right before the bell rang in 1st hour (Government Class) she felt one coming on. She was trying to just relax and let it pass. Then the next thing she remembers is seeing Jesse (a good friend) and her teacher kneeling next to her. She had a bunch of paper towels in her hand and apparently they had been catching the saliva for her. By now she could speak clearly, but was tired and lay back to rest.

Instead of coming back home I took her to my Mother's house for the day. I knew I needed to work and that I didn't want her to be alone. My sister Erika as also there to help if needed.

She immediately went to lay down and slept.

So grateful for family. I don't know what I would do without that support.

Smiles

Sean A'lee

Fri 4/27/12 - 2:15 am seizure

Fri 4/27/12 - 2:15 am seizure

Was so glad I actually woke up. I had woken up suddenly at 2am and randomly checked Breck. She seemed fine. Then within 15 minutes I heard a faint noise .. soft clicking from her mouth. I quickly turned on the light and sure enough she was seizing.

She was on her stomach with her head turned to the right. Her eyes wide open and lots of saliva on her pillow. About the size of a medium watermelon. She was clicking her tongue but other than that I didn't notice any other convulsions. It does seem that she was holding her breath during the seizure as like the times before. I quietly whispered to her that she was ok and reminded her to breath. I even find myself taking in big breaths like I am showing her how. I guess it is a natural thing to try to breath for someone.

After about what seemed 1 - 2 minutes she took a big breath and I knew she was coming out of it. Sure enough she sat up - I gave her a towel and helped her wipe off her pillow. She looked at me, shook her head and laid back down. She couldn't seem to talk but just heaved a heavy sigh and shook her head. Then went to sleep. Again she continued for a short time --- maybe 5 minutes with random clicking of her tongue.

In the morning she wondered why she had a towel next to her and seemed to only remember seeing me kneeling next to her for a short moment.

I then confirmed to her that yes she had a seizure and what had happened. She said "wow, because I feel so good, like I slept really good all night." She also looked really good - her coloring and energy level.

She then made the comment that it will be interesting someday when she gets to look back on her life --- it will be like watching a movie she has not ever seen. lol --- so true. Oh how I love her attitude and sense of humor.

Then I took her to school.

Smiles

Sean A'lee

Thurs 04/26/12 - 8:30 pm Seizure

I guess I updated too soon. I will figure this out and maybe group them together in one post a day.

We are all headed to bed after her last seizure at 8:30 pm. Breck was in the kitchen and felt one coming on. She actually made it to the living room and was trying to move something off the couch to sit down. John noticed her mouth was tight on the right side --- and she seemed to be trying to keep her mouth shut as it was full with lots of saliva. I thought she might start convulsing, but did not. Her movements seemed awkward and stiff like robotish...(if that is even a word) or mechanical might be a better way to describe it. He grabbed her and helped her sit forward --- it is amazing -- she didn't open her mouth until we had a towel for her --- Her eyes were open and very dazed --- glass like.

It lasted maybe 2 minutes and her vocabulary was back with in 5 minutes.

We asked her what she remembered - she said - she remembers feeling one come on -- heading to the couch and trying to sit down... then waking up - doesn't remember anyone giving her the towel.

She is definitely tired.

Good night --- smiles

Sean A'lee

P.S. Nope... "robotish" didn't show up in spell check as any type of word... oh well --- I guess I am creating my own language. lol

Thurs 04/26/12 - 2 Seizures while napping - 5pm to 6pm

Breck slept from 5 - 6pm and when she woke up had 2 different large wet spots on her pillow. Sign of 2 more seizures. She also expressed being really tired and had a hard time finding the right words when telling me about it.

I am so thankful she called me and Izaak was then watching her more closely for me. If our count is correct this makes 5 seizures within 36 hours.

Tonight our plans are dinner and lounging on the couch.

She didn't complete all the homework she wanted. She said it was hard to focus and understand what she was reading. She was working on her government class. She needed to read about a subject, write a paper explaining the situation and then give her opinion on it. I believe she chose one concerning prayer in schools.

Let's pray for a good night tonight.

Smiles

Sean A'lee

Thurs 04/26/12 - Seizure while sleeping

I don't have an exact time of her seizure last night. I was afraid of that when I went to bed. I even told my mom last night that I was so tired that I was worried I would sleep through any that she would have. We both figured if it was a real bad one that I would wake up.

I did wake up around 2 am and checked on her. But at 5:45 this morning when her alarm went off for school she was too tired and seemed very out of it. I asked if she had a seizure and she kind of said "I think so... I don't know" she thought so because her pillow was soaking wet. She looked very drained and said she just wanted to sleep, she was so tired.

So she slept until 7:30 when she got up and got ready for school super fast. We dropped off Izaak and then she looked at me and said she really just wanted to go home - she was so sleepy.

I could tell she just didn't feel good and so she is now home resting and working on school work that she can do here.

This many seizures seem to fit in with how things go and we may have a couple more days like this before a reprieve.

Aside from that all is well.

Smiles

Sean A'lee

Wed 04/25/12 - Seizure at 2:30pm

Alright! Hey everyone; this is Breck herself, also able to keep things updated. I'm sure it just might be very easy to tell whether my mother or I are speaking...just cause...it actually makes me laugh, thinking of the two different stories either my mother or I can give when I'm having a seizure.

They can be like the one this last Sunday...where I don't remember a thing except all the sudden I'm on the floor with people above me, or I feel the seizures coming and all the sudden look down and see a line of drool all over my shirt or a puddle on my desk or the floor. Those can be so embarrassing at times, and yet...they can also be the type I'm most grateful for, able to know what really happened. At other times, sometimes with other seizures, I'm able to still at least smile at the ridiculous memory.

Real fast, I'll include how I did have another seizure today in my sixth hour, but we had a substitute in class so I wasn't even about to try and explain...so hoping I could get out in time I just went up to her right away as I felt it coming and asked if I could go to the restroom. She was really nice and said yes right away. As soon as I was out the door my legs felt crumbly and I sat down right there outside against the wall. And then...next thing I know, seems to me to be a second later although I know it wasn't...I looked down and my shirt and pants were covered in their waterfalls of drool...ha, I know it is really gross, but at the same time, no one else was there...no one else was even walking around me for even me to tell if I'd just missed them taking some steps or something; I am so grateful, for this confirmation that I had even had a seizure, instead of me being paranoid.

I've heard so many different stories, of what happens during these seizures, but one of my favorites, as I was about to tell before talking of my seizure in sixth hour, is the time I felt one coming and told my mom, since I was here at home and we were actually making some food, bean and cheese burritos. She sent me to the couch and as soon as she could, she brought me a burrito. It was great, as are all of our burritos, so I then was just trying to ask for another one when my mom and dad just stood there and were laughing at me! I got so frustrated! What was wrong with them?! I finally just went to sleep, turning my back on them.

Waking up a while later, I found out their whole point of the story. To me, my words were all making sense, but they say I just kept saying the same sentence over and over. "Get the secretary out of the tire. Get the secretary out of the tire!" Ha, oh that is only one of the funny stories we have with these seizures. I truly do have a marvelously wonderful family. I know my mom has probably heard me say this over and over again, but I truly do feel my family and my greatest friends who have seen these seizures are the most absolute greatest of people! I do love all of them so so very much, for all that they go through, watching me have these most scary sounding seizures...I've only ever seen a couple which my mom has shown me videos of, but other than that, I never seem to catch anything except the feeling of them coming and then all of the sudden people's faces around me.

I also do know I have such a strong testimony, which is also one of the only things which feels to be getting me through. I could warn all who are reading this now...ha, I will try and keep them shorter from now on but I really might also end everything with an ending of my testimony. I truly do know without a doubt I am not going through these seizures without a reason, and I truly do know without a doubt I have a loving Heavenly Father and Savior, Jesus Christ, who love me, and I love them. I know they will never give me anything which I can't handle, and I thank them for everything they're giving me with these seizures, including all the true friends I'm coming to find and wonderful love I'm able to feel from so many around me. My heart is so full of love. Thank you so much everyone. Love you! And I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.